“What have you been up to lately?”
“Well, I’ve been doing a lot of walking.”
[silence]
“Okay…why?”
This is how many of my casual conversations have started this summer. I answer differently depending on how well we know each other, or how much we’ve had to drink. But the fact remains: I don’t have a simple answer to this simple question. It might be more obvious if I were living in a more pedestrian-friendly city, or if I didn’t have a working car or bike. But that idea that in the last few months I’ve been doing more and more walking in San Diego, the city I was born in and lived around for the majority of my life, has proved a bit odd for some. After all, it’s not as if I’ve been trying to acquaint myself to a new city, which in the past I’ve preferred to do on foot. Nor am I looking for a good form of exercise. I respect the fact that some people find walking to be their ideal fitness solution, but it isn’t exactly the most time-efficient workout plan.
Yet I have my reasons for walking, and as varied as they may be, I’ll try to list them here, followed by a brief explanation for each.
I don’t have to. It’s a political act in itself insofar as it defies convention. Whatever privilege or power I may possess is drastically reduced in the act of walking. Even without cars, few people would choose to walk longer distances when bikes and public transportation are an option. So choosing to walk miles on end through urban and suburban areas when I can afford not to verges on the absurd. The simple act of walking gets more complicated in cities built for cars and in a culture of fear that keeps pedestrians indoors. The only people I’ve come across on the same routes and putting in the same mileage have typically been pushing shopping carts toward the nearest recycling center or chosen place of rest. Few recreational walkers I pass bother giving me the obligatory hello, most likely because with my backpack, sweat and scruff I must look somewhere between a transient and a lost tourist. My presence on the streets makes little sense and turns few heads, making me even more invisible.
It satisfies the historian in me. There’s no better way of unearthing the historical layers of a city than by navigating it by foot. Sometimes my walks start with a urge to see an old building or district, or to travel an old route. Walking through these boundaries gives one a better sense of how these places are connected by space and spirit and time. Obviously, the older a city, the more clear apparent this becomes, which gives cause to many people asking why I’m so fascinated by young San Diego’s urban landscape. But I’m drawn to the neglected and banal as much as the restored and original. There is an element of radical nostalgia ingrained in anyone today who chooses to walk their hometown as a way of retaining some sense of their roots.
It gives me the solitude I need in order to think. I don’t always walk alone, and have had some of my most memorable walks with others, but there is no denying the value in a solitary walk. The sense of freedom that comes from walking alone can seldom be found elsewhere. I often use my walks to give my head a rest from a day of studying, and to generate ideas for writing. Hey, it seemed to work wonders for so many others (Rousseau, Wordsworth, Woolf, et al), so why shouldn’t it work in some remote way for me.